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Let It Go: My Goals Never Bothered Me Anyway

By Becky Rizoli, self-advocate – The LINK Center at FCSN

The Federation for Children with Special Needs 2008 GalaWhen I first heard the song “Let It Go,” from Frozen, I was struck at how the lyrics could have been about me.

I was diagnosed with ADHD when I was eight. I was put on medication and received counseling. By the time I reached adolescence, I had developed a stutter. Bullies in my class cruelly mocked me and picked on me because I was in special education. I withdrew socially and avoided speaking except when I absolutely had to.

“Conceal, don’t feel
 Don’t let them know”

I was fortunate to have a mentor in my speech therapist, who told me that I could succeed if I tried hard and believed in myself. Thanks to her encouragement, I tried out for the school play. The theater teacher initially was hesitant to cast me, but when he heard me read from the script, he discovered that when I was playing the role of someone who spoke fluently, I spoke fluently as well.

He cast me in a speaking part, and patiently took the time to work with me as I became comfortable with my role. At one rehearsal, I was able to break through my inhibitions, and perform with the passion I had been lacking before. He came up to me after rehearsal, and told me how impressed he was at the progress I had made. I was elated.

“It’s time to see what I can do
To test the limits and break through”

On the night of the play, the audience was astounded at my performance and couldn’t believe this was the same girl who used to stutter every time she opened her mouth. As a result, I became a more confident person, and was more comfortable expressing myself. I was through hiding behind my difference.

“I’m never going back
The past is in the past!”

This was a major turning point in my life. It was a dream come true for me, and all because someone believed in me. Because others believed in me, I came to believe in myself.

My goals never bothered me anyway.

Lyrics from “Let It Go,” by Kristen Anderson Lopez and Robert Lopez